A SORTA FAIRYTALE
A SORTA FAIRYTALE finds Scarlet back in LA with a man she has convinced herself is her life's soul mate. "They take the big trip in the classic car up the Pacific Coast highway and across the desert. But as they go on, the masks drop away and they discover the fantasy they have of each other isn't who they really are." They end up back where they started and Scarlet leaves. "They did care. But somehow they lost each other. Which is why it's only A Sorta Fairytale..."
-- Scarlet's Walk bio
That's what Tori had to say about the meaning of 'A Sorta Fairytale'.
I find her explanation of the lyrics very interesting. 'ASF' is my favorite Tori Amos song, it really touches me. I never really 'understood' the lyrics, because (as said before) she doesn't want her songs to have a direct message or purpose.
She says the song is about a couple that takes a trip accross the desert (that's pretty specific btw - it's a story), and during the trip they start to realize they've been living in this kind of fantasy. Very interesting, because I had a total different story in my head. I think more mirrored to my own situation/story.
I thought the song was about two lovers who were seperated from each other, because the relationship didn't work out. Mainly because the other person wasn't ready to handle it. It gave me the feeling that the couple had tried, very hard, but that they couldn't fix it, although they both know it was true love.
Tori sings: 'I rode along side 'till you lost me there in the open road. I rode alongside 'till the honey spread itself so thin for me to break your bread'
. To me that felt like she stood by her man for such a long time, that she went to all the craziness, but that there came a point where it was all just too much.
"And I feel so sad, like a good book I can't put this day back"
. Like she can't forget about him, but that she know there's nothing much she can do, because it's not fixed.
"and i was talking to you, and i knew then it would be a life long thing
but i didn't know that we, we could break a silver lining"
. - As if she knew from day one they were meant to be together and that she never expected to end up like this. Seperated. That she didn't expect, eventhough the weird and complicated circumstances, that they wouldn't make it.
It's like she knows she can't change the situation, but still knows she's missing the love of her life. That she maybe wants to burn the bridges, but simply can't do that, because they've been connected to each other from day one. That she's going on with her life, and lives a happy one, but still knows it's kind of surreal without the other person in it. Like a sorta fairytale, but not really.
Like I said before, maybe I mirror my own situation to the lyrics, because I've been in a situation as desribed above for a very long time. Those lyrics make just perfect sense for me. That's why I find this song so special. The way it describes everything is so subtle, abstract and not so cliché. Listening to this song can make me both very happy or very sad. It's magical.